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the unbroken spirit of myself

by STATEN

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bugsinyourpudding There is no one else who makes genuine and such beautiful music like Justin can. Every song is so beautiful and shrouded in this sense of mystery where you can realize things within them after different listens. I JUST HAD TO HELP AND BUY THE ALBUM AFTER LISTENING NONSTOP BECAUSE YOU GOTTA JUST SUPPORT AN AMAZING ARTIST LIKE JUSTIN. one of my fav albums that have come out recently. Favorite track: PT 1.
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Pepe This album is such a beautiful mix of different styles, vocals, and electronics/instrumentals. The lyrics are so deep, and catchy. Also the rapping parts are so good, I recommend this to everyone I know and they all love Justin's fantastic project; Staten Favorite track: Felina.
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PT 1 03:21
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Felina 03:24
I need some bloodwork I need some medicine I just need something to make me feel like alive again. I need a haircut tell my mind to shut up. I just need something fucking anything to move on. But I can’t help it if he catches me first close all my curtains but the mattress he owns sink in an IV now it’s more than my bones and I can’t get away, and I can’t get away Oh it’s a night alone even if she’s in my arms Oh god I’m used to it Oh god I’m used to it. I’m not feeling like myself if you could even tell. Go on and leave me in my bedroom, baby. I’m not feeling myself fuck if I can tell can’t even make it to my bedroom, baby. Going backwards fucked up now, my back hurts. I’d kill myself if it meant for her to come first. I’ve seen my terrors locked inside my mirrors, I’d kill myself but I’m waiting for the better. And I can’t help it if he’s calling my name from Calvary to Rahway, I am his slave. Oh my angel eyes, I need you here tonight, Oh god I love you more, oh god I love you more.
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Mocha 02:52
Hold on, the pills are all aligned and I’m not finished yet. I just want your love but caught your silhouette and even then I let it go. Oh god, ain’t no god fearin he don’t hear me, my bedroom’s not that far from where he’s staying but even then we’re not that close. Hold on, why am I trying so hard to impress you? Pick apart the pieces of myself for you; fall apart till nothing’s left but my bones and chosen flesh drowsy fuck right off my meds I write words on a white page right words at the right place. Give a fuck about how I changed, never paid no mind to the hive craze no eyesay God damn what the fuck am I saying? But a god ain’t so damn sane. God damn would you like what I’ve done? We ain’t really even in the same lane They don’t want that soft shit Put the Saint in coffins Never got my solace but I’m moving on and on and never looking back I’m never looking never looking. Losing all the mileage mouth is feeling quiet and my guess is nothing makes sense and I sometimes forget what my name is when I’m not the center of attentions hit me on my mentions catch me on a solo find me on the front row singing Halogens while I’m balancing couple pills in my stomach with a pile of gin clutching on my mic like a javelin split your band in half have you babbling why bother battling? God, are you kind? Forgive me for everything I’ve done in my life. My motives follow prophets who are strong but so blind. I was so afraid when you were gone when I tried to call you in the night. (Silent after losing battles. At least I’m trying, what comes after nothing?)
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Rucha 02:10
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Firefly 03:15
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12403 02:50
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J.F. 02:03
There’s still an emptiness inside, I disregard the ones I love watching people passing by. Why don’t you look me in my eyes? Cause I can’t validate myself without a window in your life. But what you want? I want that love from the ones who wrote me off, you know you’re nothing, oh that’s Justin he’s just used to fucking up. I’m so used to fucking up. They pay enough attention just in case I may have made it, but I’ll never be respected until I get rich and famous. they’ll string together memories so vague almost complacent feigning friends for life, a day one, since our diaper days, the basics. Let em talk that shit but have you ever seen my room? You must’ve sent me flowers when I overdosed in June. Or you were by my side in ambulance ride when I panicked out my mind Oh you were there, right there, thank god that I know you thank god that you care Fuck what you know, you mean nothing to me. You can take what you want, don’t feel sorry for me. I’ll give to the poor but keep the goods all for me. I’ll die all alone but that’s alright with me.
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s??? 03:24
Newfound paranoia sitting on my windowsill Your eyes provide the light rapid mouth but I can’t hear you well. Newfound paranoia has to cut your fingernails has to brush your lack of hair picking skin inside your mirror. Why don’t you bother someone else? Like the love that I forgot or the victim of my rob a hit-and-run who was never caught. I used her body as a drug to test my limits on my lungs the strength of all my weakened bones how am I built for all this love? Newfound paranoia hidden under beds and sheets took the pictures from my dreams washed them with my memories. Newfound paranoia lose myself like I don’t know you broken pride no hallelujah look at myself like I never knew you. Newfound paranoia oh my god I think I love you took so long for me to notice but give me a kiss and we’ll start over. You have my heart I owe you To this day I’m still so loyal falling star from sky to soil we’ll watch it grow, watch me grow. Find balance on a biased spectrum I’m born into, not developed, accused me for the embellish all my life. Never questioned my sick mind I felt normal in the lines like I belonged all the time. Like I belonged. I came home so differently I’m fine mom don’t worry about it Cause even if you care you can’t help me.

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For Mom & Dad, Ed & Karl, Patricia, Gafar, Marcano, Shaq, Jameel, Christine, Angelique, Peter, Matt, Zachary, Jess, Jess, John, and George.

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released February 28, 2017

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